Have you ever stopped yourself in mid-thought, and then thought “Why am I thinking this?” Perhaps it’s an opinion, belief or understanding you’ve had that suddenly, doesn’t make sense to you anymore? Perhaps it doesn’t feel right any longer?
About 14 years ago, 1-2 years after I was divorced, I was sitting in my church at mass, and I heard the priest state “…The ONLY Son of God.” And, out of the blue…I thought “What?” How can Jesus Christ be the ONLY Son of God, when WE are also told we are ALL Sons and Daughters of God? Suddenly, I thought to myself…”this doesn’t make sense anymore.” If you know me now, you know I believe in many different, spiritual teachers spiritual entities and deities, including Christ and more. I believe we all have the Divine within us, and are all a fraction of this Divine energy, therefore, all connected to each other as One. To me, it’s all about spirituality and oneness, learning to work with each other with our unique gifts. Anyway, what’s very interesting to me as I look back upon that experience, is how did I not challenge that belief before that specific time?
I grew up with religion, astrology and metaphysical understandings in my life. Yet, it was that moment in time, when my life had a very profound shift in my beliefs. I was on autopilot at church! I had been accepting what the Catholic Church told me as my Truth without question. Before this moment, I had challenged the marriage contract where my belief was “it should not be broken.” I believed that with my whole being, which caused me a lot of stress. A very wise woman asked me “if he is not honoring the contract, why are you?” My ex-husband (not to take his inventory for those who may be offended by my next words), abused drugs and alcohol. He was hardly ever home, as since I was not accepting of his lifestyle, which was hidden from me, until we were already married, by him and his family. Once married, he stayed away from me to be with his friends who would party with him. He had talked himself into saying it was okay to be doing coke because he worked long hours and he needed to stay awake. Basically, he really wasn’t participating in the marriage.
Anyway, when I challenged the marriage contract, I was still rather upset and nervous about it, as I am a person of my word. My wise counselor helped, but what really helped was when we told my Grandma. By, “we”, I mean my mother and I. My Mom thought my Grandma would be super upset due to her religious beliefs. But, we were very surprised by what she said. She told me “honey, if he isn’t being good to you, and you aren’t happy, then you do what makes you happy.” It was like someone took the shackles off my mind surrounding marriage. Now, I also believe people should try to work out their differences, and we both had went to counseling, however, in my circumstance, it didn’t bring us help, but helped me start to heal.
So, I am sitting in church, with my sudden revelation, and also felt free of being a hypocrite sitting there, a divorced woman. I was no longer some pariah, or feeling as though I should be shunned, as women have been through-out history for divorce, or being “tossed out” by their husband. And we, as women, carry this around in our energy from previous lifetimes and our ancestors. I’ve released many of this now through working with my personal Akashic Records, and releasing with Reiki and other energy work. Talk about Freedom! I walked out that day and felt very happy. I haven’t returned to a formal church sermon since then, although I know they can bring lots of good to people. I loved the singing, and the community, but I was no longer vibrating at that frequency.
Even prior to the revelation, I had been doing yoga, and read all sorts of alternative self-help books, had been going to Al-Anon, and absorbed as much information and knowledge as I could. I kept it up during and after the divorce. Others started noticing a huge difference in me after the divorce. They saw me as happier. I was actually radiating a pure happiness. Others had always told me they felt a calmness around me, and I made them “feel better” by just being around, but now there was a different level of it. True, I was no longer stressed by the marriage, but I was also working on healing myself, which brings upped my vibration.
I have dated others and I have not yet met my Divine Partner, but each has taught me more to heal and transform myself. I know it is imperative to continue my healing journey and Divine Order and Timing will take care of the rest. Relationships are definitely a wonderful way to learn about yourself. Having an Akashic Records reading to understand contracts with people in your life is definitely a wonderful tool. I have a friend who had multiple readings with me and has cleared out a lot of karma! As once you know what the karma is about, you can use energy work, like Reiki, to remove the energy cords and blockages. The last relationship I had was one of the most powerful ones to really give me a huge energetic push to do more energy healing work on myself and receive energy work from others. I continue on my healing journey and my soul path, and am thankful of the wisdom I have gained through many different types of relationships through-out my life.
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Love & Light! ~ Heather